Mood today: FUCKED UP!!!!!!!
First wa confused over recognition chalet, wondering if we are having chalet or bbq or outing..till now still clueless. We dont hv enough money to book for chalet, so went round asking who is willing to pay today so we cn book chalet. But in the end, keep on mass msg everyone but oni one or two of them reply. Some even was telling Jingen, i oni go for awhile, i oni go for one night, must i oso pay that full price?! Just pay first la, ltr at the chalet then we calculate first. You all want chalet but so unwilling to pay for it, then what for. MengHwee suddenly say he wanna pay for the chalet first, so we contact Kevin. Kevin still has the cheek to say, wait for me to finish watching my movie first then talk. By then what time liao, plus MH orady volunteer to help up with the cash, why not just book. Still wait here and thr, by then you'll forget everything. End up MH oso pissed off, so cancelled. Bbq, must book the pit 3 days in advance by then i'm in malaysia orady, so cant. Outing, dunno whr to go..

Then i was just talking abt outing to my mother, my dad heard it. So he was like are you gonna ton overnight outside? Do you know how dangerous isit. And what kind of friends do you have. They are leading you the wrong directions. I wont allow you to do that. Straight away i was, its just a suggestion, not confirm that we will ton overnight yet. Then he start criticising my friends, all the friends i hv. FUCK YOU!!! You dont like my friends, fine..i'll not bring them home nxt time. But you dont have the right to criticise them. They are my friends, they are what i am today. They are the ones who went through thick and thin outside with me. They are the one who really cares for me. He said, i believe my friends more then believing my parents. Of coz, look at the comments you'll give me once i said abt night cycling!! Tonning overnight outside!! Chalet!! Staying over at friends hse!! All negative, pls la..i 18 years old orady, not small kid. I have my own tolorence. And to every tolorence thr is a limit. Say i'm mature or not mature oso you say. Whatever i say or do is always wrong..whatever u say or do must be always right.. Whr got such thing. You call this home, i call this jail. I know you care, but dun you think you've gone overboard, i dun like it!!!!! Whr's the freedom i used to have during the holidays period?? You always criticise with whoever i hang out with, which ever friend i mixed with! Chinese, malays, even friends frm other coutries. I know who i'm mixing with, and i knw what i'm doing. I hate to say this, but if you like to scold me, nag at me, criticise me so much, what for in the first place bring me into this world. Do you even rmb during my secondary school life? Once you even said me that i have malay blood, do things like malay. You're wong, this is how i do things, this is how i perform..how cn you say that i have malay blood. You say i'm your son, i dont think so. I'm like a bastard to you. You say you'll feel sad when i'm not listening to you, you cry. Are thr crocodiles tears?? Fucking mad abt it..fuck it la!!!!!!!!!